January 2010
I’m so wound up, oh my god. I just need to get drunk aha.
Hi.
I would really like it if I DIDN’T have a thousand homework assignments that took up my entire weekend. K.Thanks.
OPE! That was a lie.
Today I realized I never made a New Years resolution. So I thought up a really good one:
In the next year, I’m not going to do anything that will need resolving next New Year :)
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I have the worst stomach ache of my life, and I have NO idea why because I was eating so well ALL DAY. Except for the SMALL AMOUNT of candy I had around 3. AHHHH. I want to die.
I finished Dear John today, and I cried for the last 30 or so pages of the book. Don’t judge. I can only imagine what I looked like, hovering over the book just flat out sobbing like a baby. I love myself<3.
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I found it.
Is it physically possible for me to have a good day? Not a KIND OF good day, a flat out good day. One where I’m not pissed off, upset, or stressed out. It’s getting really exhausting. I just want to be happy. Maybe find a guy who will care about me enough to not go hook up with drunk little girls or a good friend of mine. Oh, and maybe that guy should also NOT dump me for another girl....
Did I seriously just type a novel of a post and have it disappear? Yep. THIS DAY JUST KEEPS GETTING BETTER.
Everyone else seems to have found happiness, why can’t I?
So,
I got into the Art Program at Buff State :). That’s always a plus.
But don’t ask me about the rest of my day lmfao, it was shiiiiiiiiit. Work at 5:30 until close. Kinda wish I was going to the show tonight now, but oh well.
I swear to god, ever single damn Taylor Swift song is running through my head right now.. I need to get all this off my mind -__-.
Working tonight, maybe I’ll get some good tips.. I’m saving all my money for spending cash in France in March, plus a beautiful macbook. Maybe I’ll try and buy a new northface, too. Maybe a white one :O.
School is so annoying, I don’t want to...
“Because this is what happens when you try to run from the past. It just doesn’t...”
– Sarah Dessen
I haven't felt this pathetic...
… since the middle of June. Honestly. I’m going insane right now. One second I’m pissed off SO MUCH, the next I’m blaming myself for everything, and then I’m upset! I just really need a change in my life.
On another note, I just want to know what the fuck is so difficult about FIDELITY and HONESTY. Two very simple ideas, and yet NO ONE can follow through with either...